Teddy.Ramblings

relocation

2006-05-10T01:58:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jaime Wyatt - Light Switch

It's been good but it's time to move.

Teddy.Ramblings has now moved on to:

http://redphayze.phreaking.at

OR

http://redphayze.awardspace.com/wordpress

Finally got my own webspace! Woohoo =)

Do head on over and check it out. Update your links too, please. =)

See you over there! =)

lighthouse roses

2006-05-08T16:41:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Phantom Planet - California

Whee! A brand new blogskin for Fudgie's blog. =)

What do you think of it?

ramblings

2006-05-07T16:59:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jim Brickman feat. Laura Creamer - By Heart

My church has gotten itself a new sound system and the tech guys had their hands full getting it in order. Kinda made me think again how much interdependence goes on in the body of Christ. If the tech guys didn't do their part in setting up the sound system, us musos could play our fingers to the bone/sing till we're hoarse and it wouldn't be as effective as it would've been with a good sound system.

Teddy music: Alicia Keys & Adam Levine - Wild Horses

For some odd reason, the ball of my left foot hurts. =S Meryl's suggested a warm foot soak. That's a good idea - a little pampering for the tootsies. ;P

Had a nice long nap earlier too. Two hours to make up for last night's horrible sleep. The housemates had a drinking party and were up past 3am. Sigh...

Right. Enough whinging! *smack*

Time to do my assignment.

dark goodness

2006-05-07T00:02:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Georgie Auld - Taking A Chance On Love

Mmmm...mellow jazz is good for the soul when it's dark out. =)

Look at what Allan bought for me as a "reward" for being pulled in last-minute to play keys for our youth service on Friday night. Daniel had me as his "reward" (it's a conspiracy, I swear!) for doing vocals and playing violin at the service. ;P They outright asked him whether he'd go if I was there...funny lot that bunch. Ah well...hehe.

My absolute fave chocolate treat - dark chocolate! The more cocoa-y it is, the better I say!

Allan actually texted Daniel to ask him what type of chocolate he should buy...hehe. Ah, but it was still not a big problem to play keys for the youth service. It's a privilege and an honour to serve others =) And, Lozzie did a great job of leading the service. Woohoo!

That blue peg with the chicken on it - that's from a set of six deco pegs I bought in Sydney last weekend. Half of it's Daniel's and the other half's mine. The chook's for reminding us about the time we did star gazing and in the background, the chooks were clucking softly. Funny chooks...

Teddy music: Joe Henderson - Candlelight

Good, as I was finishing editing the image above, the familiar blue lights started flashing. Which means my sayang's reached home safely. We did good today - he got back home just before midnight. =)

Time for this little teddy to trundle off to bed too. An early morning start beckons as muso duty calls! =)

framed happiness

2006-05-02T11:32:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: MercyMe - I Can Only Imagine

As promised to Dugong a short while back.

A photoframe of the important people in my life, not withstanding God of course. =)

As for the other 2/3 of the Musketeers, don't worry - your pictures are on the Dashboard. =)

art of sight

2006-04-29T00:29:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jim Brickman feat. Michael W. Smith - Love Of My Life

So sleep deprived at this point. Perhaps, some of it can be made up by sleeping on the bus to Sydney later. =)

I've a question.

How is it possible that even though you may see the other person almost everyday, when it comes to not seeing him/her for just one day (or more), it makes you miss the person? Heck, even the thought of it does that to me.

I hate this clingy feeling. I've always believed that some independence is necessary for a healthy relationship. Everything becomes unbalanced if my world isn't God-centred. Good thing to bear in mind.

Teddy music: 'Jelly Roll' Morton - The Crave

Those who've watched 'The Legend of 1900' would remember this piece. It's the piano duel between 1900 and 'Jelly Roll' Morton. What an awesome piece of piano artistry!

Back to the topic.

I'm learning to deal with it. Hence, the phrase of 'See you when I see you'. I do want to be with him but I don't want to smother him. Once bitten, twice shy.

The CCC Canberra district leaders' meeting earlier with Fergus McIntyre was awesome. My muso leader had asked me to join him on keyboard for the meeting. I'm glad I did. What God said to me through Fergus is very encouraging. =)

Time to trundle off to bed.

So, I'll see you when I see you. =)

surprise sweetness

2006-04-24T18:21:00.000+10:00

Call it cliche or what you will.

In my books, it's a sweet surprise to receive a beautiful flower bouquet when your sayang comes back home. =)

However, I'll never forget the man who first gave me flowers. I still remember that bunch of yellow tulips. Thank you, Papa. =)

mind fodder

2006-04-23T01:42:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Thirsty Merc - Someday, Someday

Don't you just hate it when your mind blanks when you try to make yourself write an essay?

God, please give me inspiration and creativity to finish this essay quickly. I'm seriously blanking here.

Procrastination showed up in the form of knotting the myriad of plastic bags in the box. Funny how my mind seems to think of tidying up activities when it should be focussing on the matter at hand.

Teddy music: Dido - White Flag

Spent some time during the late afternoon having a chat with daddy dearest. "Vader-dotter" talks are always good for the soul. =)

Apparently, Papa says that I'm idealistic but it's tempered with social grace (in that it's balanced by the reality's starkness). I suppose he's right. I do have certain expectations in and of life. Shouldn't everyone?

As a girl, there are things I expect to happen in a certain manner. Perhaps it may not be exactly how I pictured it but it should be along the same lines.

Teddy music: Jasemaine Gan - Yong Bao

Doesn't every girl dream/wish/hope/want/expect to be treated with respect and loving care, not "to be put in their place" or forced to submit? For my part, I do and I'm thankful & grateful that I am treated as such by most of the significant males in my life.

Personally, I think romance is important too. I'm not saying that only red roses, diamonds, wine and opulent velvet/silk/satin will do. It needn't be wining and dining in excess extravagance (not that it's a bad thing on occasion ;P). The constant little things matter so much more than one-off showy displays. If a guy does things that show he's put thought and consideration into it, that's major brownie points right there.

Field daisies from the heart are just as beautiful as a $50 bunch of roses. Peanut butter and jam sandwiches made with love satiate more than an expensive dinner at some fancy-schmancy restaurant. Chocolate milk can be better than vintage wine if you share it with someone you have a heart connection with. Tender embraces warm you up much more than a mink furcoat would.

I think a lot of girls would agree. Correct me if I'm wrong.

Teddy music: Five For Fighting - Love Song

Impulsive acts are fun too, provided they don't carry dire consequences. =) Coming from a self-confessed OCD/perfectionist, it's liberating when you have someone you can do that with. Everyone needs random acts of craziness. I like surprises, good ones, that is.

I guess to some, I may be rambling. But, after today's chat, I just felt like it had to be said.

Teddy music: Hoobastank - The Reason

Well, it's late. I should be in bed since I've to be up early. Another day beckons.

weekend returns

2006-04-22T15:03:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jim Brickman - Angel Eyes

The end of the midterm break has finally come. Where did it go??

I've yet to finish that MarComm essay. Bleh. Can you imagine - twenty references for a 2,500 word essay?!

So, procrastination has manifested itself in various forms. Today, the dust in my room has been wiped clean. Over the past two weeks, sticky buns and cookies were baked. Plenty of time spent with Daniel.

Teddy music: Jim Brickman feat. Jordan Hill & Billy Porter - Destiny

I've finished two assignments already.

If you stepped into my room, you'd see that there are three calendars around the room. Plus Fudgie's iCalendar & my organiser.

A touch of OCD/perfectionism, perhaps?

Teddy music: Brandy feat. Ray J - Another Day In Paradise

James has given us the honour of playing at Linda & his wedding in June. Wow. I've never played at a wedding before. This'll be an experience. Hehe. Looks like Daniel & I have about a month to get our musical act together. =) James was telling us that Linda wanted Daniel to play the violin and me on piano. Well, you have to admit that piano and violin do go well together. In fact, a lot of instruments play well with the piano. Or, perhaps I'm biased? Haha... ;P

Teddy music: Switchfoot - On Fire

To quote Joy, this weekend and the next will be so-called "lonely weekends". The boy's gone interstate for a family relative's birthday and returns tomorrow evening. Next weekend, I'm off to Sydney for the IH trip and returning Sunday evening.

It's not so bad. We can't be joined at the hip all the time. That would be too much and it's not healthy to be so dependent on the other person. God must take priority over each other and we must learn to depend solely on Him.

easter days

2006-04-16T01:14:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Lifehouse - Somewhere In Between

It's Easter Sunday! =)

Thank God that the internet connection on ressies came back to life (I know, bad pun ;P) because it had died after the rain on Friday. I had thought that the internet wouldn't be fixed until Tuesday since it's a long weekend due to Good Friday & Easter Monday being public holidays. But, God proved me wrong and answered my prayers to revive the internet connection. =) Thanks, Father!

Wow. I still can't believe the hours I slept on Friday. Went to sleep about 2.30am and woke up at 1pm! Yikes. Ended up not doing much work that day since I was on keyboard duty for Good Friday service in the late afternoon and later hanging out at Eucs & Adam's place for dinner.

Teddy music: Ten Shekel Shirt - Meet With Me

Today was more productive. ;P Read three more articles and finished one 30 sec TVC for a micro campaign. Spent time with sayang and his family. Got to be a "silent guest" (I refused to say anything on air) at the radio show that he and his friends run on weekends.

Good news, the flu bug is slowly being eradicated. Yayness!

Ah, one week of midterm break's gone. So soon!

Tuna!!

being phlegmy

2006-04-13T17:17:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Hanson - This Time Around

Browsing online for cookie recipes yesterday brought me across pepernoten, oliebollen and stroopwaffels. Those who're Dutch would understand what I'm talking about.

Pepernoten (pepper nuts) - a spicy-ish button cookies generally available around Christmastime in Holland.

Oliebollen (oil balls) - a deep-fried fritter mixture of flour & raisins, best eaten hot with icing sugar.

Stroopwaffels (syrup waffles) - thin waffles halved and put back together with a filling of caramel.

I miss those foods. And, kibling (battered fish pieces) & raw herrings with garlic.

I miss my childhood.

Teddy music: Matt Redman - Let My Words Be Few

Battling the flu is not fun. =(

Let it be over quickly...

Anyone want to hug a phlegmy one? *puppy eyes*

honeyed diversion

2006-04-13T00:05:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Switchfoot - Adding To The Noise

I know I'm supposed to actually sit there and read through articles for Marcomm Foundations but...it's so not what you want to do when you're on a break. =(

So what happens? Yes, the baking urge takes over and voila, Honeybee Cookies "magically" appear on the kitchen countertop! Not my own recipe but one I found online.

Now, I'm going to go back to reading articles. Sighs. I quite like my other diversion (;P) but...assignments etc are getting in the way.

What an exciting Easter break I'm having.

daddy-o

2006-04-10T01:25:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Barenaked Ladies - Call & Answer

Just had a long heart to heart talk with my daddy.

Discussed about some things that I needed some sage wisdom (;P) and a sounding board.

Thanks, Papa. =)

Aren't daddies great for that?

Best of all, the greatest Daddy that ever existed is God. Now, that's someone who'll never get bored of you wanting to talk to Him about anything and everything that's on your heart.

I'm so blessed to have two wonderful daddies in my life. =) To have the heavenly Father-daughter and earthly "vader-dotter" relationship.

wedding bells

2006-04-08T23:44:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Hillsong United [Live] - Deeper

Elise & Brett's wedding today was just beautiful. It's such a pleasure and a privilege to witness the union of two souls who made the decision to love each other for life. =)

I had no idea how emotional a wedding can get. There were quite a few times I started to get misty-eyed during the ceremony. It was just so sweet.

Elise looked absolutely stunning in her wedding gown and Brett looked very sharp. =)

I believe and pray they'll have a wonderful marriage that's blessed by God.

On one note, I've decided that pink will not play a part in my wedding colours. ;P

answers, answers

2006-04-06T15:26:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: John Mayer - No Such Thing [Acoustic]

Walking out and about today will ensure you get that windswept look that models spend hours getting prepped for.

;P

It's nice but cold. The wind whipped some roses (not literally!) into my cheeks too - no need for blusher here! =)

Elaine tagged me & I'm bored today. So here goes the teddy's ramblings:

1. Taken a picture naked?
...the heck?!

2. Painted your room?
I wish =)

3. Kissed a member of the same sex?
Air kisses are counted, right?

4. Drove a car?
Heck, yeah!

5. Danced in front of your mirror?
Doesn't everybody do it at one time or another?

6. Have a crush?
Yeah but not currently ;P

7. Been dumped?
Unofficially...

8. Stole money from a friend?
Nope - my conscience wouldn't allow it.

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
Yep.

10. Been in a fist fight?
No but throwing stuff, yes ;P

11. Snuck out of your house?
Yep.

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
Yep. =S

13. Been arrested?
Heck, no!

14. Made out with a stranger?
Heck, no!

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?
Lots of times...haha.

16. Left your house without telling your parents?
Definitely.

17. Had a crush on your neighbour?
Way back in elementary.

18. Ditched school to do something more fun?
Yeap.

19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?
Yep.

20. Seen someone die?
Erm...thank God I've been spared that.

21. Been on a plane?
Many times.

22. Kissed a picture?
Yep.

23. Slept in until 3?
I think the latest I've gone is 2pm.

24. Love someone or miss someone right now?
Both =)

25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
It's so relaxing =)

26. Made a snow angel?
Yep...hehe.

27. Played dress up?
Of course!

28. Cheated while playing a game?
Yeah... *blush*

29. Been lonely?
Lots of times.

30. Fallen asleep at work/school?
Lots of times. ;P

31. Been to a club?
A couple times.

32. Felt an earthquake?
Uhm, no.

33. Touched a snake?
I touched lizards before?

34. Ran a red light?
Yeah.

35. Been suspended from school?
Nope.

36. Had detention?
I don't think so.

37. Been in a car accident?
With stationary objects, yes. Hitting moving vehicles, nope although there was that stupid motorbike that hit me from the back. Grr...

38. Hated the way you look?
Heck, yeah!

39. Dated someone more than once?
Yeah.

40. Had/Have a dog?
I want a corgi! =(

41. Own an instrument?
Yeah - my piano =)

42. Been in a band?
Does being part of the church music team count? If not, an acappella group?

43. Shot a gun?
Oooh...I'd like to try that. Laser guns don't count.

44. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends?
Back in elementary.

45. Who do you tag with this survey?
Uh...whoever's bored and has a mind blank about what to blog.

*******

That was certainly "enlightening". ;P

lazy days

2006-04-03T22:49:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Utah State That One - Rainbow Connection

Another lazyish day.

It was pretty amazing and a great time to be backing up Steve Deal on Sunday when he came to CCC Belconnen. =) Awesome experience!

Didn't feel so great on Sunday especially after service. After lunch and the movie, we headed back to my place. How cool is it that we got to see the premiere of Ice Age 2 for free? We'd rocked up to Hoyts on a whim after lunch since both of us weren't in much shape to do anything particularly active. Turns out the premiere was yesterday at 2pm, about the time we showed up. A guy randomly came up to us and asked if we wanted his extra double pass. Now, who'd turn down a great offer like that? =)

Scrat's my fave character in the whole movie. The possums were funny too.

Felt kinda bad that he spent the later half of the afternoon watching me drift in and out of sleep when we got back to my room. But, it is nice to have someone cuddle you when you're feeling rather out.

Just a couple more days 'til mid-term break and more time...

dark horse

2006-03-31T18:41:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Blue - Best In Me

A dark horse: A little known, unexpectedly successful entrant

I'd say God's blessed me so with one. =) For that, I thank Him everyday.

That's all I have to say.

rainy softness

2006-03-30T18:46:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Juliet The Orange - Eyelash

Today's weather is just lovely. Maybe not in the typical sense of blue skies and fluffy white clouds. It's more of the weather that makes me feel like curling up on a window sill in a comforter with a steaming mug of tea, a good book and soft jazz in the background.

Since reality doesn't quite jive with my ideals, I've been spending the day running around campus for MASCA reasons and getting along in my PR assignment. Also, the window sill in my room isn't wide enough to sit on (neither is it very safe from the first storey).

The closest I got to my above ideal was to have the mug of tea and music. Plus, I got to finally break out the trakkie daks and sports jacket. Wheee...it's oh-so-comfy to mooch around in them.

I like soft, rainy days when you can stay home and just enjoy it. =)

refreshed soul

2006-03-28T12:34:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hillsong - Emmanuel

Last night at muso practice, we had the privilege of Brendon Clancy guiding the worship team in terms of being sensitive to the Holy Spirit and facilitating a worshipful atmosphere.

After hearing what he taught, it helped to break my perception regarding the role of the keyboard in the worship team. I used to think that the keyboard wasn't as important as the other instruments since most times, you can't really hear it over the singers, guitars, bass and drums.

Brendon explained how the keyboard can help "glue" together the atmosphere and that every instrument is important. It doesn't matter how small a part it plays, it still brings its own layer and dimension to the whole picture.

Pretty much like how God's family is. Everyone is important and special. No one is lesser than another.

Also, it was refreshing to have someone lay hands on me and pray for me. Hadn't had that in a while. What Brendon prayed over me was very encouraging and I thank God for speaking through him. =)

Indeed, we must learn to live expectantly in God and He never fails to exceed expectations - in more ways than one!

life tracks

2006-03-27T00:50:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - Rain Down

Daniel, Loz & I drove all the way to Cootamundra today because Steve Deal (from CCC Atlanta) was holding a set at Cootamundra High School. Well, Trent (the connect group pastor of my church) had told the church about it so it sounded like a good idea to go. Trent, Kaz, Renee & Andrew were the other CCC Belconnen members who went as well.

We got a little sidetracked but we managed to get there with a couple minutes to spare. Hehe.

It was pretty good to hear Steve play a live acoustic set. Not to mention, listening to his testimony of how God came into his life and brought him to where he is now. Quite amazing to see how God can lead us in our lives if only we're willing to submit and obey Him.

Also, since it's about four hours (for both ways) between Cootamundra and Canberra, it gave the three of us a great opportunity to share about ourselves in the car. =) Car drives are always a good time to really get to know another person just because you're stuck in a confined space. Hehe.

Teddy music: Planetshakers - I'm Yours

Daniel & I have decided to start on a daily devotional study. I think it's really good to do something like that since you can grow spiritually both as a couple and as individuals. So, yeah, I pray that as we seek God together, He'll draw us closer to Himself and to each other. But, of course, first and foremost, it's always about God. =)

This is to appease him - since he likes the psychotic look so much... ;P

Rest assured, he may look so but he's definitely not. It's just his crazy streak coming out. =)

seventh heaven

2006-03-25T11:44:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hillsong United [Live] - Blessed

The well-loved Levi's are starting to shows signs of wear and tear. Hence, it means it's time to seek out a new pair of jeans!

Personally, there are only two jeans brands I favour - Levi's and Seven7 For All Mankind. It's not being a snob but more the fact that I already know my fit (in those brands) thus reducing unnecessary shopping stress. I'd been a-hankering for Seven7 jeans ever since I came across them quite some time ago in my jeans research. ;P

Feast thine eyes on this beauty:

Seven 7 Flare Jeans "Crinkle Ink"

It fits like a dream! =)

I think that I've been turning more girly. My 16-year-old self would be horrified but where I'm at now, it's an enjoyable thing. ;P

Teddy music: Planetshakers - I Believe

So now, Fudgie is back in action! Better behave now...

Which also means - time to get back to work!

thanking you

2006-03-23T01:29:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Sarah McLachlan - Elsewhere

Funny how everytime you ask God to build and strengthen your faith, it's never a bed of roses. The question of why does stretching one's faith need to be painful? How can stepping out of one's comfort zone be so precarious?

I'm caught in between a hard place and a rock, so to speak.

It's very frustrating.

Some might think I'm making it a bigger issue than it is. In the light of the recent hurricane disaster up north in Queensland, it's nothing but a miniscule speck.

However it is something that lies close to me and hence, it hits directly.

You keep trying and trying. Sometimes it feels like hitting a brick wall over and over again.

Teddy music: Dashboard Confessionals - So Beautiful

Thank God for the support from family and good friends. It's become such a black topic to me - I told my dad on the phone the other day that if I don't bring it up, it means I'm not in the mood to talk about it.

I need to get elsewhere. To find that place of tranquility. I know where to go. A time of prayer; in commune with God.

Teddy music: The Katinas - Thank You

What an ingrate I've been. This song just slapped some sense into me. Go take a look at its lyrics.

To think of all He's done for me. The blessings He's given me. The beautiful people He's placed as my support network - family, boyfriend, friends.

Little things that mean so much - heartfelt conversations to be treasured, precious moments stored deep. =)

P.S. Fudgie's returned from the 'hospital' - Daniel & I welcomed him back today. =)

four weeks and two days

2006-03-21T13:39:00.000+11:00

[Blogging from Building 10 - Mac labs]

Well...still Fudgie-less =(

Hmm...by now, I think some of you know about the latest development in my life here. =) For those who don't or haven't figured it out yet...

Daniel & Cor

Yep. That's my sayang there. =) Sunday was exactly a month (and the same day!) from when we first started out.

Bachelor cake for dessert

The long weekend (Monday was Canberra Day) was nice to hang out together - his 21st party on Friday, watched the Infernal Affairs DVD trilogy over Saturday & Sunday, celebrating our first month on Sunday & the BBQ with church friends on Monday.

He's been a real blessing & happy surprise addition in my life.

What else can I say but he's a real sweetheart. =)

Blessed birthday (it's a little early ;P), sayang!

mental breakdown

2006-03-16T12:22:00.000+11:00

[Blogging from the CLRC]

Well, Fudgie's gone and lost his mind. Quite literally.

I am now Fudgie-less! *teddy cries*

We sent him to the Apple Centre on Tuesday (when I made the horrific discovery) and I dearly hope I hear from the "hospital" by tomorrow or Monday at the latest.

It was like the nightmare from last year (not 'The Nightmare Before Christmas'!) happening all over again. This time, it wasn't as bad because:

a) Thank God I'd decided to extend the AppleCare Plan from last year *big sigh of relief*
b) I had backed up Fudgie's memory exactly one week from Tuesday - all I was missing was just a couple of files that aren't that important.

From now on, when Fudgie comes back, I'll be backing up every other day or three days. You can never be too paranoid with this.

Also, it's such a blessing in disguise that I finished the assignment due this Friday early and had handed it in on Monday. I was actually thinking of procrastinating it until the next day but I had this weird pressure to just get it over and done with. See, it's not about being a brown-noser but rather, taking preventive measures.

Besides, if I didn't get my assignment finished earlier, I'd be in a lot of trouble now because Friday is a very full day for me - International Student Ambassador induction program in the morning & Daniel's 21st in the evening.

How fast the weeks fly by once semester started!

from one to another

2006-03-14T01:38:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hillsong - To You Alone

Had a really good chat with a friend after a long while. She messaged to inquire about something. =)

Anyway, the conversation that ensued carried some really good pointers to ponder and keep at heart.

I guess, I just wanted to say 'thanks'. I know we don't talk much all that often but when we do, they're good conversations. =)

let them eat cake

2006-03-13T09:40:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Craig David feat. Sting - Rise and Fall

In one week, Canberra will be a grand old age of 93 years. Ooo...

We went to the "birthday bash" at Stage 88, Commonwealth Park yesterday. The name was pretty self-explanatory, 'Celebrate in the Park'. =)

Didn't do much except for lounging around on the grass and listening to music. After all, it was a free concert. They had Alex Lloyd on as the last act (he did play 'Amazing'! Yayness!) and fireworks for the finale. Considering I missed out on SkyFire this year, it was nice to watch "pretty things explode". I had my cake and ate it too. Haha.

On a F1 note, Alonso won! Wheee...and kudos to Raikkonen for clawing his way up to third place for the podium finish. =) Oh, and McLaren's new chrome look is very slick. Shweet. Me likey. ;P

Teddy music: Steve Deal [CCC Atlanta] - Fall On Me

Yesterday was a nice day for R&R. Besides the weather (sooooo very hot!), it was all good. =)

Nearly a month now. ;P

fibres of dreams

2006-03-11T10:44:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hillsong United [Live] - Shine For You

Wow. I can't believe it myself actually.

In one day, I bought two dresses. Two! Yeah, I know. Daniel was, "Dresses? It's plural?"

Big surprise, huh, for those who've known me for quite some time. ;P

Yes, it's true. Meryl & I went shopping at Canberra Centre in Civic yesterday. My goal? To find a suitable dress to wear to Brett & Elise's wedding in April. I know, I know. April's four weeks away but I figured that with my assignments and stuff, I'm better off getting it now plus there's sales! Haha.

So, thus began the hours of trying on a gazillion different things.

Teddy music: Christian City Church [Oxford Falls] - Prophesy

It was fun in a way - trying on different clothes for the heck of it. It is quite overwhelming sometimes to see the sheer amount of choice of female clothing.

So, the two dresses that now reside in my closet are a red silky cheongsam-style dress (Meryl bought the white version of it) & a floatyish light semi-formal dress in warm shades of red, orange and yellow (after all, it is called the Cabana Sunrise Dress from Wish). I love them both 'cause of the colours - red! Haha. Also, they're versatile in the sense that they can be worn as dressier casual or on semi-formal occasions. Wait, was that just redundant? OK, never you mind.

What really rocked was that the second dress normally retails for AUD$139.95 but thanks to the Myer sale, the price was $54.50! And, most importantly, it fit! Sweet!

It's so annoying when you find something that you really like and it's not in your size...grrr.

Now, my second goal is to make sure I can continue to fit into the dress. Better be careful... =)

sunny walks

2006-03-10T01:29:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Will Smith - Switch

I want to change the display picture in MSN but not quite yet. A little longer than it'll be right. I think you understand. =)

It was nice to hang out for a couple hours today. Something to get used to especially when May rolls around. Bleh, May is like the month of two assignments due every other week. Oh dear. Does that mean slim chances of holidaying during the mid-term break? Oh noooo... =(

Yes, and thank you for being so patient after lunch. I liked how you said it was OK to get "distracted" as we had time to walk around. Hehe.

You missed out on pizza earlier. However, I'm impressed that you had the resolve to go home and get other matters settled. =) Good on you.

Power of the brownie!

"He's huge...!" ;P

Edit: I need a dress for a wedding! Cripes...any ideas?

mutated rhyming

2006-03-08T15:36:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Alex Lloyd - Amazing

Well, I was reading News.com.au and came across this article:

Nursery rhymes - what you said

Sighs...the world today is getting far too caught up in being "politically correct", "neutral" and being "inoffensive".

You can't please everyone. Someone is always going to pick something to get offended by.

Teddy music: Fort Minor - Believe Me

Bugger. I'm just not in a very fantastic mood today.

I hate it most when people make you feel incompetent or undermine your ability/authority.

glitzy words

2006-03-07T10:33:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: The Wannadies - You + Me Song

Funny song, this is. Kind of a pseudo-jazz feel to it. Jazz is good. =)

Anyway, it's a random post here. I'm feeling a little more accomplished because I've managed to finish one assignment. Now it's time for touch ups.

Teddy music: U2 - Vertigo

The Academy Awards show was on last night. I found it half-entertaining because personally, the Oscars is just a chance for me to flood my eyeballs with eye candy. Sadly, there weren't a lot of cute guys but the women as usual were out in full force. Some were gorgeous (Nicole Kidman looked as classy as ever and Michelle Williams was gorgeous in her summer orange gown) and some looked a little, er...I won't say. Other than that, when they had people up there ~~rambling away~~ giving their thanks, it got a little tedious.

I think what annoyed me the most during last night's commercial breaks was this bugger of an ad about men's *ehem* little problem. Come on, it's the Oscars on prime time! Aren't those ads supposed to be shown like after 10-11pm?

Teddy music: Rochester Yellowjackets - Sweet Home Alabama

If my brother chooses to come to Melbourne for uni, I've got reason to go there. If he picks Oxford instead, I'll have reason to go there too. Haha. It would be nice in a way if he were to come to Australia. But, it really is his choice. God, please show him the right path to follow. You've blessed him so much and shown him favour so I pray that You'll continue guiding his path.

Oxford. Hmm...*begins envisioning family trip there* Hehe...nah, it'll be a while before he graduates.

However, in the short-term, me feels like swinging by Sydney for Pancake on The Rocks. Mmmm...pancakes. Hehe. Meryl, you wanted a reason to go to Sydney, right? Let's go! ;P

Rock on superbly, you awesome person. =)

chopstick moments

2006-03-06T01:35:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony

What a long but fun day. Pretty hilarious too how the word's getting out.

It's entertaining to watch a "newbie" use chopsticks. It makes you really appreciate the differences between cultures. Things that you take for granted because you're just so used to seeing/experiencing it all the time.

The "Sister" ladies conference that my church held on Saturday was an enriching time. Pastor Mel shared on the four characteristics of sisters and it's something every girl/woman should embrace.

Sisters...

...dream together
...reach out together
...are loyal to each other
...teach each other

Isn't that cool? =)

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - Love To Praise

So, today, we did another tourist-y thing. We visited the Old Parliament House. It was rather interesting to see the difference between the new and old Parliament House. I got to be a "tour guide" since it was a self-guided tour. Hehe.

As much as I love my espadrilles (;P), my feet needed a break so we retired to the Senate Garden for a while. It's very lovely there to relax on the benches along the archway. In fact, while we were hanging out there, we saw there was a wedding party/photography session going on. With the roses out in full bloom, it does make for a very pretty picture.

Speaking of weddings, looks like I'll now be attending one in April. That also means - time to buy a dress! Hmmm...where's my fashion advisor?

Teddy music: Hillsong United - Rest In You

Oh yes, today was the first time CCC Belconnen had a violinist as part of the muso team. It rocked having that new layer of sound =)

It's been an awesome day. I learned two very important lessons today as well. One, if you must disturb an ants' nest, stand at least two metres away for your own safety. ;P Two, don't stand near someone who's drinking at a water fountain. The consequences to both can be dire.

sparkly bits

2006-03-03T00:37:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Ben Lee - Begin

One whole day went by. It's already March. I'm being random here. =)

I guess, I just wanted to sparkle up your day. Did I?

*spickle spackle sparkle*

My new project codenamed Project DP has begun. Well, technically speaking, not yet but it's sitting there. As soon as I get my assignment underway, the project will begin.

Teddy's sleepy now.

Oh, and big birthday hugs to Bear! =)

penguin thoughts

2006-03-02T10:14:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Steven Curtis Chapman - I Will Be Here

It's a mere two weeks and a bit away. I'm still puzzling over what would be most suitable. Plus, you think it's funny to watch me figure out what to get. ;P

I have an idea. I hope it works out. Heh.

Well, I have to say that God is indeed good. I'm not saying this just because things are going pretty well at the moment. Even when things stuff up, He's still here with me (and you, of course). It's when you look back at history, you see how much God has moved in your life.

Teddy music: Ryan Cabrera - Let's Take Our Time

OK, I've got to go and settle more MSA matters. And, get started on my uni assignments. Oo er.

Penguin, indeed. ;P

funny surprises

2006-02-28T08:54:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - You're My God

Wow. It's the second week already. Has it really been a week? Amazingly enough, yes.

TropFest on Sunday night wasn't too bad. The first half was definitely a lot more interesting than the second half. The funniest short film (to me) was the mockumentary about a father practicing favouritism on his twin boys and his rationale behind it. After it was over, we hung out by the lake while waiting for the exodus of TropFest watchers to leave the carparks.

It's kind of bizarre how MSA seems to have so many problems. Like, everything is suddenly cropping up that were previously hidden, etc. It does bite because it's giving a lot of unnecessary pressure but I'm believing in God's intervention that He'll help us with a path out.

Teddy music: Hillsong United - Unify

Sunday was a funny day, indeed. I don't know how we failed to notice Lozzie & her friends when we walked past Cafe Essen. Hence, the surprise when her SMS came. Heh. But, it's all good. Got a little ribbing from her last night during musos practice. That girl is a laugh (and that's in the best possible way) - I believe the youth in our church have an awesome leader and they're blessed too because of her. Love ya, Loz! =)

Last night, I was pondering on how full my plate is this year. And, even though I want to drop something - I can't. Plus, I've now been "banned" from dropping one particular thing...haha. How quaint. ;P Nah, I won't drop that. It'll definitely stay =) Everything God has given me in this year, I'll do my best to be faithful with it - remember the parable of the master who entrusted his servants with talents/money. I just need more of Him if I'm going to get through it. Which, He never fails to do. =)

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - Faithful

OK. Time for daily devotion and more life scheduling.

shooting stars

2006-02-25T13:29:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Jaime Wyatt - Light Switch

This is a long overdue post from my Kuching trip back in January. For those unfortunate people who've never been to the Land of the Hornbill, you don't know what you're missing out on. The food...is...superb! Simple but so deliciously satiating. Excuse the low image quality - my dad used his camphone 'cause I was too lazy to bring my digicam along. ;P

*******

Three-layer teh peng (iced milk tea)

"Wet" char koay teow (fried rice noodles with tomato sauce)

Sarawak laksa!!! Mmmmm....

Kueh chap (pig offal & pork) - my grandpa & daddy loves this but it's so....not my thing ;P

Kolo mee! My other all-time favourite dish =)

Deep fried dukun (bread fruit)

*******

Teddy music: Counting Crows - Accidentally In Love

Last night we went to short::seasons at the National Musuem of Australia. It was interesting to see the films - I liked the Monopoly movie the best. It was funny especially at the end...heh.

I missed the shooting star last night. =( Was a little tired from the day and I was comfortably ensconced, so it didn't really matter. =)

Tomorrow night's TropFest. It's like short::seasons except it should be better - after all, it's a nationwide project. short::seaons is local. Even though one could tell that they're amateur films but hey, it's still entertaining nonetheless. =)

P.S. Score! God's been wonderful in blessing me with getting FOUR textbooks for $120! Now, that's really worth it...haha. Thanks, God. =)

compacted week

2006-02-24T07:28:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - Faithful

It's the end of Week 1. And, in some ways, I can't wait for Week 2 to begin.

Funny how it can feel like I've lived five years in seven short days. So much has happened and yet, when I take a step back and look at it - it's been such a short period.

Uni life should go into full swing next week. I've already marked down all the major assignment dates and they culminate in May, in Week 11 & 15. =\ Thank God I've only one exam. But, it means that I've got to work my little butt off in cumulative assessment for my units. I'm thankful too that I've only three units instead of four. *prays for God's help & strength*

Last night was a bit of a downer. Was a little depressed because of something that's happened - it was pretty much info overload. It's like I've been having to process so many things in the past two weeks and I haven't had a chance to breathe properly.

My head felt like bursting because of the amount of things that needed to be thought about/handled/settled.

Teddy music: Jamie Wells & Aimee Massey - All My Days

But, it got better after talking with him. It was nice to physically have someone listen to you - I'm not saying that I don't appreciate the power of prayer/online chatting with family & close friends but yeah, it's different when there's an actual person there.

Mummy, I know you read this blog. Just wanted you to know that one's spiritual walk is important to me - hence the encouragement to really start doing daily devotion. =)

As for the previous post, I'm just so thrilled for her. Hehe. Hoping and praying that things will work out and acceptance will become part of the picture. =)

wishes across the seas

2006-02-22T09:17:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - All I Need

I still can't get over how amazingly God works. People have said I seem perkier ;P Well, I'd definitely say that yeah, this newfound discovery does have its way of putting that extra dosage of happiness into my life. A "pleasant suddenly", indeed. =)

I had wanted to blog about it but instead, I won't. Why? Because at this point, I'm more concerned about a friend than what's happening with me right now. As much as I love Canberra, this is one of those times I wish I could just hop onto a plane and head right over to her to give her a massive hug. Thinking about her situation makes me so grateful for my own situation and I can almost cry for her. =(

Dear, even though it was a very brief online conversation last night, I'm just praying and hoping that things will work out for you. And, as you already know, I'm always going to be there for you to the best I can =) Hang in there! *teddy hangs along*

A really good friend deserves the best, and nothing less.

lakeside entertainment

2006-02-20T02:07:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Bachelor Girl - Buses & Trains

How I wish my family and inner circle were here right now.

And, uni starts again tomorrow. Technically, mine starts Tuesday evening.

Teddy music: Edwin McCain - I Could Not Ask For More

Good news, Meryl & Hillyah's back in Canberra! Yayness =)

Today was interesting, to say the least. Got a tanline on my decolletage =\ Spent the rest of the afternoon at James & Linda's new home - it's really great to see how God blessed them with such a beautiful home...and four chooks. Hehe. But, seriously, it's a lovely home for them to begin their new life together =) They truly deserve it. Then, went out with Meryl & Lin so Meryl could stock up on some groceries. Hehe.

It was great to catch up with Meryl. I was SO excited when I saw her SMS earlier - been waiting for her to come back to update each other. ;P Thanks, girl, for coming over =) Hehe...and remember, be diplomatic!

With Meryl's arrival, came Kel's gift too. Thanks for the DVDs, dude! Hehe...now, when I'm bored - I have Naruto to entertain me. Although, I may not be very bored soon...hehe.

All in all, I think it's been a pretty good day. Of course, looks like I've got to watch how language plays a part in our communication. ;P

currents of randomness

2006-02-18T16:26:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Toploader - Dancin' In The Moonlight

Meh.

When is the weather going to cool down? Goodness, it's not very conducive for Fudgie. Poor dear's running like it's got a fever. =( I'd leave it alone but my music need must be satiated.

Teddy music: Tyler Hilton - Up All Night

Yeah, that's what happened. Kept drifting in and out of consciousness. Must've been the warm, stuffy air coupled with an overactive mind. Weird how one's mind gets wired when tired. Perhaps that's when all inhibitions just fall away and you're left with the primal mass. I don't know.

Teddy music: Yellowcard - Empty Apartment

To move off on an unrelated tangent, I like how a dear senior described Australia, in terms of copywriting: You can use big words there.

Haha...OK, so maybe it sounds a little bizarre but it's true. I suppose it's the fact that English is the main language used unlike Malaysia that's at least trilingual. For copywriters, it's hell because you've got to write copy that can be easily translated into at least two other languages without losing its intended meaning. It really can limit one's vocabulary.

Teddy music: Five For Fighting - 100 Years

On another totally unrelated point (I know, it's an extremely random post), I went online looking at Pembroke Corgis. Seriously, they are the cutest things! One fine day, I shall own a dashing Corgi and I shall bestow upon it the name of 'Spud'. I could get another one and name it 'Spunky'. Then, I'll have SS2! Hehe...if you're not from Petaling Jaya, I don't think you'll catch the joke.

Alright. Enough rambling here. In 45 minutes, I shall grab my walking shoes and hit the lake shores. Time to pay my delayed greeting to Lake Ginninderra.

espadrilles and arch heels

2006-02-18T00:08:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Planetshakers - I'm Yours

As promised for Punch =)

Behold...the newest (and I think, the first) impulse buy of February:

How can you resist such lovelies? And, a bargain price of only $19.97! *swoon*

After all, I'd had a long week of trying to deal with this layer of murkiness that just wouldn't lift. So, yes, I gave in. Gave in completely to the feminine solution of shoe shopping. It's not often when it happens but when it does, the intense satisfaction one gets from it - I can clearly understand why some women are shoe addicts.

Teddy music: CCC Oxford Falls - My Hiding Place

Went for a combined church meeting that Rev. Kong Hee was a guest speaker at. What he was talking in there about having dreams, especially the right God-given dreams...just smacked me in the face. And, it helped answer a query I was mulling over for some time now. We can either choose to be like dogs that got smacked on the nose and run away with our tails between our legs OR we can decide to stand up to the challenges/problems that come our way and be overcomers with God by our side.

I rather like option #2. =) So, instead of going along with what I'd already 75% decided on earlier today, I'm going to stick it out and not let it get to me.

This is year is turning out to be interesting. In more ways than one. Indeed, new beginnings for 2006 are already springing up - attitude shift, personal shift, study shift, job shift, life shift ;P

ruminating mind

2006-02-15T23:51:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Nickelback - Far Away

Halfway through O-Week. I'm taking the day off tomorrow.

So these are the contents of IH3/1-7:

Lower layer - Nikki (Canada) / Wendy (Malaysia) / Cute (Zimbabwe)
Top layer - Geoff (Canada) / Jukka (Finland) / Tim (Australia) / moi

Funny how I'd mentioned to Cute in the previous week that I might just end up with a floor full of guys. =)

Nonetheless, it's still pretty quiet as most are either out or in their rooms. I sort of miss the old housemates but it's all good. After all, it's only been a week since everyone's moved in.

Teddy music: Ben Lee - Catch My Disease

There's a question on my mind that's giving it an exercise. Like the way a cow chews its cud. So, fine, that wasn't the most romantic metaphor but hey, whatever works, right?

It's got its pros and cons. It's more a matter of which outweighs which. In any case, it's only the beginning and things will (hopefully) clarify themselves soon. Hopefully, Darth Vader will turn out to be harmless too.

Teddy music: Chad Kroeger - Hero

A hero. I need my hero now.

rising phoenix

2006-02-10T17:16:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Dido - Sand In My Shoes

A new look to mark a new beginning, hey? =)

Still dogged by a bit of fatigue but it should clear up soon. It's lovely to walk around without having to grab fistfuls of tissues to wipe the sweat off.

On the other hand, I sorely miss the company of the inner circle. It's alright - the wonders of technology bridge it but not as effectively.

If you know anything about the symbolic meaning of the phoenix, you'd probably get why I designed the blogskin that way. Flowers made it look pretty too. Hehe.

The last of the boxes came with Kev's visit yesterday. Funny guy is still as eccentric as ever. =)

Alright, off to fix up the room and stock up on groceries.

balancing stage

2006-02-08T18:32:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Il Divo & Celine Dion - I Believe In You (Je Crois En Toi)

Finally, back in Canberra. =) It's good to be back. The cool air (now it's turning into autumn) is much better - the heat/humidity in Malaysia was making me nauseous.

Reflecting back on the KL trip - it was an eye opener. Going away and returning for a while made me see things differently. Reevaluated several matters and now I know a bit more which is more important and which isn't worth my time/effort. Realised afresh how important the inner circle was (and still is!) - they stuck with me (very patiently) throughout it and I don't think I would've been able to stand up today without them.

Brought a friendship to a new level, I believe. We got closer through the things we shared even during the few one-on-one sessions.

Teddy music: Aerosmith - Fly Away From Here

It's all about a balancing act. Sometimes, we tip too far over and end up in a mess. Not easy to do and only practice makes perfect.

Life's an act too. A great big drama/comedy.

Nevermind it, though. It's a new life I'm starting here. I believe that God'll bring me new beginnings. Death only means a new beginning, not the end. Only good can come out of change.

mental snaps

2006-02-05T04:07:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Nickelback - Photograph

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it
Time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it
It's time to say it
Goodbye, Goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me.

This song just resonated with me. Photographs. Snapshots of the past. Physical, mental and emotional.

It's never easy to say goodbye, isn't it? [See, proper grammar dictates the tag question use of a negative against a positive ;P]

I may not have actual photographs spread on my bedroom floor but certainly, there's photos spread around my mind's space. You take up a fair number of them, no doubt.

Time to put them away in a shoebox and tie it up with a ribbon. Put it away for safekeeping and another time when maybe it won't hurt as much.

Goodbye to you. You already left without saying goodbye.

blue on red

2006-02-03T22:53:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Westlife - Grow Old With You

The never ending feud twixt the head and the heart. One that can never be resolved. Battles may be won but not the war.

Keep pulling on my heartstrings. One day, if you keep pulling and letting go, it may just break. Then again, heartstrings have a tendency to snap back.

Teddy music: Lee Ryan - Army of Lovers

I've got to get back to Canberra.

My business here is pretty much settled. Meeting my two fave college seniors today marked the end of the list of people to meet again. They've been a great influence without knowing. =)

Sorry if the music this time's rather emo. Just a little blue even amidst a season of red.

flying with you

2006-02-03T03:06:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Harry Connick Jr. - The Way You Look Tonight

I guess, I want to say I'm sorry to you. For what I did and didn't do. For what was said and what wasn't.

You don't know how much I wanted to go but I held back. You didn't seem to care much either.

Give me some time. Hopefully, it'll resolve itself.

*******

Bear's off to Melbourne tonight. The four of us took lots of pictures and a lot ended up looking like (in the words of the boys), a band's album pictures. Hehe. Check out the Flickr page when they're uploaded and you'll get what I mean. =)

I'm off to bed. It's been a long day.

journal for thursday

2006-02-01T05:14:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Vince Guaraldi Trio - Skating

Spent the evening with Jase at Oasis. Like she said, it's got great atmosphere but its F&B could do with a lot of improvement.

So, mocktails it was (hey, I'm driving so no alcohol for me ;P) and plenty of girltalk. =) Just the two of us and a plate of french fries.

Teddy music: Jazz Piano Christmas - Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire

Got me thinking about Thursday. Still debating what's the wisest decision. Still wondering if it makes a difference.

Nestled in the red cushy chair in my room, I flipped through my old journal of 2003/4. Relived some moments. Some sweet, some mushy, some painful, some interesting.

Journals. The stories they can tell.

And, still, Thursday beckons ever so quickly.

buddy trio

2006-01-28T03:18:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: The Eagles feat. Eric Clapton - Hotel California (Live Acoustic)

Well, boys, this one's for you. ;P One of your "preferred" songs...heh.

See, it didn't end up in Friendster. ;P

One of the rare times I get to see them, especially of late. Still good though. =)

Eight years and counting. Goodness, time does fly.

*muax*

you're out

2006-01-23T22:23:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Girls Aloud - Jump (For My Love)

It took a while to get here.

Hadn't planned on making any 2006 resolutions since they usually get broken or forgotten later on. But, after today, I've decided on one.

"To be more selective in terms of companionship."

It's tiresome to do the obligatory rounds when your heart's not in it and the other party doesn't care enough to do something. A friend echoed my thoughts, "How important is s/he/they to you?"

There's a story behind it that only some would know and perhaps understand.

Take it as good as you serve it.

zippy roads

2006-01-23T13:25:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Scissor Sisters - Take Me Out (Live Lounge)

Met up with Alby last night and headed off to Stream Cafe to watch Jase perform. =)

We just hung out and took trippy pictures (which shall come later). Jase had a nice time of watching us make fools of ourselves. ;P

Alby sent me this Scissor Sisters' cover of Franz Ferdinand's 'Take Me Out' - very funky.

*******

It was really great to meet up with Meryl & Kel in Singapore over the weekend. Albeit, rather briefly but still, better than nothing, right? Impromptu trips somehow usually seem a lot more fun than planned out ones. Still remember the Penang Jazz Festival trip, Dugong & Darren?

Teddy music: Simply Red - Stars

Good food, good company - bliss! =)

Two more weeks, people!

q & a

2006-01-19T04:44:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Coldplay - The Scientist

Would it be...?

Can I say that...?

Do you...?

Can we...?

I'm sorry.

invisible cuts

2006-01-17T03:10:00.000+11:00

I ask too much of something that I don't know whether it can be given.

Ending up with a self-inflicted wound.

He says I make too many excuses for it. I guess I knew it all along.

She asks me why I do it. I don't know.

It's so very hard.

repetitious

2006-01-16T19:55:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Eric Clapton - Cocaine

Exchanging lines from Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Wererabbit with Alby made me think about how many movies make you want to watch it repeatedly without tiring.

Here's my list of movies watched most repeatedly (in no particular order):
- Finding Nemo
- Gladiator
- Hero
- The Lion King (so much so that when my brother and I were kiddies, we could repeat line for line)

Wallace & Gromit is a superb Brit stop-motion comedy. The lines are just total killers! I feel like wanting to watch it again. =)

"Just a bit of cheese, Gromit."

flatliner

2006-01-14T14:21:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Diana Krall - The Look Of Love

Feelin' rather flat. Which, in all honesty, bites.

Flatliners means dead people. If you still don't get it, go ask some med student/staff or watch med shows.

*******

Happy birthday to my littlest (but he makes me feel like a dwarf next to him) brother! =)

simple bells

2006-01-12T12:20:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hoobastank - The Reason

Coastal/near-coastal cities are rather humid, hey?

Well, was away for a few days - spending time with family. =) Good food, too! Mmmm...nothing beats Sarawak food. Hands down.

After getting back, went out with dugong to have a yummy dinner & a girls' chat with another "animal" friend at her place. It was fun to just bum around in the garden and rattle away on each other's happenings.

Teddy music: The Partridge Family - I Think I Love You

Sidetrack a bit here - the current song was being used by Prime in their commercial when I left Canberra to holiday. It's such a cute song ;P

Anyway, yeah, that about wraps it up. Life can be very simple - good food, good company. There isn't always a need to pull out all the bells and whistles to entertain oneself. =)

Sighs...been trying to call ducky but somehow, his mobile's not working or something. Grrr...teddy wants to talk to ducky! =\

hand over mind

2006-01-09T01:56:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Mr. Children - 空風の帰り道

Four more weeks. Then, it's goodbye all over again. I am looking forward to it. Of course, there's always that little bit of apprehension about what's to come.

More people are leaving this time. More friends there. But, would things be any different to when I was here? Maybe, maybe not.

He leaves before I do. They all do, in fact. It's no 'goodbye', but rather, 'see you there'. Sort of.

Hmm...

Teddy music: Ryan Adams - When The Stars Go Blue

Changing the topic now.

Went with my mummy to buy dinner (a roast duck) and I loitered around while waiting for the stallholders to chop up the duck. OK, this might come across as a bit pervy (I swear I'm not!) - the guy who was wielding the butcher's knife had nice arms. As in, not the huge muscly type but just nicely defined.

You know how people usually have a preferential bodypart (that sounds a bit kinky but how else do you want to put it?), well, I rather fancy guys who have strong arms and nice hands.

Teddy music: Aerosmith - Cryin'

I'm just trying to get my mind off some matters. I really need to get my head checked sometimes. Sometimes, it might be easier if particular thoughts didn't come, I reckon. Then again...

Oh, have a look at this. It's hilarious - Girls so, like, rule English

complete cycle

2006-01-07T03:39:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Train - Calling All Angels

So, Phase 3 has been completed.

Now, everyone should know that I'm back in KL for the meantime. =)

Tonight was the final surprise on the church friends - although, there was a slight hitch...*ahem, dugong* ;P But, it's all good. Hehe.

What happens next? Apparently there's a badminton session on tomorrow - but I'm lazy to drive there. The morning will decide what happens.

tensile strings

2006-01-04T04:32:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Brandy & Boyz II Men - Brokenhearted

Quite frankly, it's always been a struggle with feelings of inadequacy and disheartenment. Probably that's why the few close friends that manage to help me get past it are so cherished.

Quite odd really how it can strike one without warning.

Reflecting earlier today, there are precious few close friends I have that we're pretty much able to pick up right where we left off - regardless of the absence of contact in between. It's almost like we pressed "Pause" and "Play" for life at the same time. It's a unique bond that we share and for that, I'm grateful. No doubt that there have been times when we've frustrated or disappointed each other but the times that they came through far outweigh the cons. These are the kind of friends that one day, I'd want my kids to meet.

Teddy music: Man Bai - Kau Ilhamku

If you really ponder on it, a strong friendship is a strangely tensile object.

constancy of change

2006-01-03T01:33:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Keith Urban - You're My Better Half

Well, it's a brand new year.

Everyone's pretty much done their "Welcome 2006" post by now. Me, I'm just late because I couldn't figure what to write yet. Fine, I couldn't think of a good heading either.

2005. An eventful year. Every year's an eventful year, really. Pretty much every year marks a milestone in some area. Last year was being in Australia for the first time ever. 2004 marked a growth in understanding of an area. 2003 was a step into the unknown. 2002 was the first year out of high school. 2001 marked the onset of SPM/O-levels. Etc, etc. You get the picture.

Teddy music: Shannon Noll - Shine

Every year means moving into a new place. Nothing will happen if we get stuck in the same place all the time, right?

Change is funny word. All the connotations it carries. Both the good and the bad.

It's true - the only constant in life is change. You can always bet that change is going to happen.

So, 2006, bring on the change. May it be many good changes for all. =)

given the honour

2005-12-29T16:38:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Thirsty Merc - In The Summertime

I really dig the Australian music scene. Take for instance, Thirsty Merc. This song's pretty catchy...I liked how Foxtel used it in their TVC.

Anyway, time for spring cleaning. The dusty grime - yech. Well, no shirking otherwise it won't get done.

Guess what, I found out that my university actually invited me to do an Honours year! Wow...

Too bad that it's a research-based Honours - if it had been coursework, I would've gone for it. Nonetheless, I'll still be studying next year, a postgraduate diploma in marketing communication. =)

Hope everyone had a good Christmas and have an awesome New Year!

=)

B to the C

2005-12-21T13:09:00.000+11:00

Hehe...

You're looking (or rather, reading) at the words of an official graduate.

Yeah! ;P

Bachelor of Communication, baby!

=)

Two hours of pomp and ceremony, an itchy gown, a funny mortarboard, lots of pictures, a teddybear and hugs and kisses to go around.

Yep. That's a graduation ceremony for you =)

to which side you prefer

2005-11-24T08:05:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Heart of Worship - The Happy Song

Had a bit of a heart to heart with my daddy last night.

Kinda stuck in a quandary now. On one hand, I couldn't care less. On the other hand, it doesn't feel right. And horrifiyingly enough, I'm leaning more towards the "I couldn't care less". =
Choose between the lesser of the two evils.

In a way, wouldn't it be nice if you could just wave a hand and make it all go away? To quote Mike from Monsters Inc., "Wouldn't it be easier if it all just blew away?"

It's so very annoying when things crop up suddenly. Don't you agree?

boxing it up

2005-11-22T02:34:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Rob Thomas - Lonely No More

Packing. Oh. My. Goodness.

Trying hard to not get overwhelmed by it. It's surprising how much stuff one can fit into a roughly 10 x 15 feet room. Not really a lot of space but students are clever creatures in terms of packing in things. ;P

Well, it's roughly a month until my graduation! Wheeee...

Right. Back to puzzling out stuff to pack and what's essential to be left to the very last.

As they say, "Chillax!"

o.O

you had me at hello

2005-11-17T11:33:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Paul McCartney - Vanilla Sky

Hello. It's been a while. Not really that long ago but long enough to feel like a million years away. Funny isn't it how time is so subjective and yet so consistent.

It's a bit hard thinking of what to say. You've got to pick and choose words carefully. It's not possible anymore to throw them out without worrying about the repercussions.

Teddy music: Jim Brickman feat. Mark Schultz - 'Til I See You Again

Pity that it's not possible to go back to those innocent days. When things didn't matter as much as they do now. When hearts were unbroken and it was easy to love others. When the simple things were enough to satisfy and joy was found in everything. When dreams were possible and challenges doable.

It only feels like yesterday but it's been longer than that. Is this what you call 'growing up'? Perhaps so. Perhaps not.

Teddy music: Nickelback - How You Remind Me

Then again, while reminiscing can bring both the sweet and the bitter back, it's better to keep moving forward. Life moves on unrelentingly and you only get left behind if you stay still.

I'll see you in time, I suppose. Let's see what it'll be like then. =)

'Til then, remember what it was like when you were a child, a teenager and as a 'new' adult. The life we lead with God is what shapes us to be the person He destined us to be.

vestiges

2005-11-14T23:22:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Usher featuring Lil' Jon & Ludacris - Yeah

Four weeks and a bit. Just 26 more days until I see four familiar faces I've not seen (physically) for ten months.

Mummy & the two boys will get to see Australia for the first time. My daddy already was here in February. Funny how my family's travelled a fair bit but we've never been to Australia. My parents were in New Zealand when they were in university.

I still recall how much I didn't want to come to Australia. It was too common - everyone seemed to be going there.

Some of my friends here have or are going back to Malaysia soon. Yesterday, one flew off. Another's leaving this Friday. Hmm...well, I'll be seeing them next year again. Hehe. So no need to feel sad or anything. ;P

Teddy music: New Radicals - Someday We'll Know

It's pretty ironic how having a blog is supposed to give you freedom of speech/expression. Really, how "free" are we to say anything uncensored? I know that there's a lot of things I want to say but when you think of the repercussions, it's not worth saying it publicly.

So, to flip "freedom of speech" on its back...here's what I really want to say tonight, albeit censored:

**************************! *************************?! ******************!! ************
****************. ***********************! ********************. *************. *********
******************************. **************************************. *************.
***********? *******************. *******************************. ********************!

There!

Back to seeing what can be packed this week. =)

it is finished

2005-11-10T16:33:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Hillsong United [Live] - Always

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*pauses*

Exams are done. Finally! Trust the hardest paper to be at the end. Still, I will not let it bug me because I know I've done the best to my ability.

And now, it's time to have faith and trust God to do the rest after doing my best. I'm believing and I will have faith that I've done well. I think Yong May will agree for her case too. =) You can and will, girl!

Time to party! =)

Weeeeeee.....

could've and should've

2005-11-08T16:19:00.000+11:00

I only got a CR+ for one of my assignments.

Honestly, I'm not happy with it because I know I could've (and should've) done better to earn a DI (distinction).

I know a lot of people are waiting to slap me and tell me to be happy but you see, I expected better of myself.

I know I can do better. I should've done better.

Let me have my tears and I'll get my butt back in gear again.

Now, I've got to ace my last paper so I can get a shot at finishing this semester with triple DIs.

It sounds selfish and over the top to some that I set such high standards for myself, but that's my life principle. I'm not here to do a half-assed job. Call me crazy, call me a perfectionist, that's what I believe.

I'll always remember what my Primary 6 English teacher wrote in my autograph book (it was the craze back then): Don't be just mediocre.

I wasn't born to be mediocre. I was born to be more than that.

I'll prove it.

going the distance

2005-11-07T02:45:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Dido - Life For Rent

There's an NRMA Insurance TV commercial that really strikes a chord with me.

It starts off with a guy buying a toy rabbit and he then proceeds to "destroy" it by pouring cordial on it, rubbing it in sand, using it as a dog's toy & putting it on his windshield in the car wash. It's a bit bizarre until you finish watching the TVC.

He then holds up a Polaroid picture (you only see the back of it) and the toy rabbit. Next, he tells a little girl (who's lost her toy) that he's found her toy. The little girl looks at it and says, "That's not my bunny."

I liked this TVC because it reminded me of my daddy. As in, he'd go the distance for his family when needed.

bricked verbally

2005-10-31T01:03:00.000+11:00

Teddy music: Kelly Clarkson - Because Of You

Some people can be so thoughtless with their words and actions. All they think of is serving themselves and their selfish needs.

I'm not saying I'm wholly perfect either. It just irks me no end when you encounter these type of people.

Can't they see that it's not just about them? Stupid people. It amazes me too how ungrateful people can be too. How much they're blessed with and still, they can nitpick about the little things? Sure, the little things count but in the bigger picture, does it really matter as much?

Pettiness looks at the small things.

Petty, petty, petty. It's enough to make anyone scream in frustration. Enough to make you want to slap them hard across the face and bash, not knock, some sense into their incredibly thick skulls.

Heard of the phrase "only a mother could love"? Something that really applies in this case.

I just wish that there was a way that these type of people could see the damage they do. Can't they understand the principle of building others up instead of tearing people down to make themselves feel good? It's so very low when people need to make others feel small so that they can feel big.

You sad, sad people.

rainbow filler

2005-10-26T01:43:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Hillsong - Forever and a Day

I'm tired. It's a happy tired though.

Thank you to my family and all my friends who made yesterday such a wonderful day. Indeed, God far surpassed my expectations. I really was prepared to go down another path of depression. Instead, God turned things around and arranged it in such a delightful way that my heart can't help but sing praises to Him. Of course, the true test of a worshipper is when things are difficult. Nonetheless, I believe that God doesn't always want us to be in difficult times - He loves to bring us joy too as we bring joy to Him. =)

I feel so very blessed and spoilt (in a good way) and loved. Such a lovely feeling. Hehe.

God really answered a lot of my unspoken desires in such amazing ways that all I can say is that it's all His doing. I didn't plan anything out as there was no time for me to do so. God did it all. Hehe. The best part of yesterday? The glorious rainbow He painted in the sky. =)

He never fails to amaze me.

Thank You, Lord, for blessing me over the past 21 years. May I learn to look to You more and more with every passing day.

stormy sunshine

2005-10-22T13:16:00.000+10:00

Stormy sunshine,
originally uploaded by redphayze.

The past two days were stormy weather days. Not physically as in weather but emotionally and spiritually.

I'll be the first to admit that I am more emotional than others and take things harder.

It's difficult. But, with God's grace, I will pull myself together and get through this. Life was never meant to be easy. It's bearable because God is there.

My family and friends have been supportive in their own ways. For that I'm grateful. Each has their own way of viewing life and it's a good way of learning lessons.

My dad shares his life experiences with me and that allows me to identify more closely with him. The best daddy in the world that I'll never trade or wish for another. So sue me, I'm a daddy's girl. He calls me up and lets me rant and cry over the phone.

One friend tells me not to whinge and because of her, I try to bite back my tongue.

Another friend says that things happen and you have no control over it. How very true and something to remember when you've done all you can and something/someone still goes wrong. Plus, the fact that she simply accepted that I was upset and didn't tell her why until later was really something. *waves at dugong* =)

Even getting a simple hug from a friend made things just that much better. Of course, everytime I meet him, he always makes me laugh. Here's a line from Kev after seeing my state yesterday: "I believe emotional people make good parents. They're protective of their kids."

Another friend put things in a different light. Sometimes, things have to be done regardless of the situation. He posed the question of whether I want to learn from this or become a quitter. This hit home hard: "We have to learn to deal or be dealt with and thrown away. Harsh, but true."

In times like this, I wish I could express how valued my family and close friends are to me.

Indeed, even though I may not have my family or close friends physically beside me in Canberra, I am still grateful that God blessed me with friends here.

Yes, I may not have any close friends yet (it takes time for me to really open up and lay all my cards out on the table) but nonetheless, I've been given the privilege of meeting new friends that brighten and colour your world.

Yes, in spite of life's troubles, I thank God for Him most of all. From Him, He provides for all my needs. That is the simple reason why I have no reason to be ungrateful for anything but to be thankful for all the blessings, even the little things.

A lesson that everyone should learn.

*******

On a happier note...

BLESSED BIRTHDAY, LIZ! May God pour out His blessings and favour upon your life. Miss those giggly bits of life with you. =)

passing this life

2005-10-20T14:38:00.000+10:00

I heard about Datin Endon's passing from my dad via email this morning.

The initial response was shock and sadness. Although I obviously never knew her personally, but the image she projected of a fine, gentle, polished lady with a huge capacity for loving those around her has been deeply embedded in my heart.

Pak Lah as Malaysia's PM is a person that I really admire and respect. Even more so, the obvious way he adores his wife. This is a couple that weren't afraid to show others the incredibly deep loving bond between them. I respected Datin Endon for the way she continued living bravely and fearlessly eventhough her battle must've been a difficult one. The way she carried on with her duties and actively taking part in her husband's life. To see her standing by his side. This must be a huge blow to him and his family.

My deepest and sincerest condolences are towards Pak Lah & Datin Endon's family. May she rest in peace and may God comfort that family in the way that no others can.

-- a minute's silence in respect of Datin Endon's passing --

Heartachingly beautiful

2005-10-16T01:15:00.000+10:00

Heartachingly beautiful,
originally uploaded by redphayze.

You're always beautiful to me. Even at your worst.

I've got James Blunt's 'Beautiful' on constant play now. It reminds me of you in a way.

Sometimes, it breaks my heart that you don't know it. Sometimes, I think it's better that you don't. For the time being, yet.

Don't stay in one place, says the postcard. Move along with life.

Seven things

2005-10-06T16:33:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Ash - Starcrossed

I didn't plan on blogging anytime soon but Esther tagged me...so... =)

7 things I wanna do before I die:
1. Be God's light - something that I need His help on everyday
2. Ride on a Harley/BMW bike
3. Bungee jump
4. Parachuting/sky diving
5. Be with the one who stole my heart =)
6. Become an awesome author & Creative Director
7. Become a National Geographic photographer

Teddy music: Black Eyed Peas feat. Macy Gray - Request Line

7 things I could do now:
1. Eat M&Ms... ;P
2. Go ice skating
3. Sleep
4. Go for a walk
5. Call up the people I want to and just chat away
6. Be nicer to people when I don't feel like it
7. Get my degree & PR!

Teddy music: Jamelia - DJ

7 celebrity crushes:
This one's a bit hard...

1. Johnny Depp - delicious!
2. Jonathan Rhys-Meyers - love his accent especially in Bend It Like Beckham
3. Kavana - a long long time ago

Teddy music: Garbage - Androgyny

7 often repeated words:
1. Dude...
2. Hi/hey
3. I dunno
4. Cyaz
5. Cheers
6. Awesome
7. Cool

My vocabulary sounds so extensive doesn't it?

7 physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1. His height - he's gotta be taller than me by at least 6 inches! I'm not even 5'1"!
2. His smile/voice
3. His body overall - I want someone who's just nice/athletic
4. His eyes/eyelids - I'd want my kids to have double eyelids since I don't
5. His hair - I like hair I can run my fingers through ;P
6. His hands
7. His butt - obviously ;P
*NB: As you can tell, I like boys. I don't really put a lot of emphasis on a person's looks as long as they look alright. =)

Teddy music: Joe Budden - Pump It Up

7 people to tag:
1. Jase
2. Darren
3. Albert
4. Elaine Lim
5. Yong May
6. Meryl
7. Kelvin

...

2005-09-27T17:33:00.000+10:00

I've had enough.

I'm off MSN for a while.

For those who want to bother, you can keep in touch through email. If not...I don't care anymore.

footy weekend

2005-09-26T02:09:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Hillsong - Love So Much

Back after a weekend away in Sydney.

It's so good to be home in Canberra. At the sight of Telstra Tower and Mount Ainslie's lights, I was getting excited inwardly! ;P

It's been an interesting weekend. Hung out with Tim, Pats, Jo & Ian mainly. You could say it was an all-footy weekend - AFL Finals : Sydney Swans VS West Coast [Saturday]; NRL Semi-Finals : St George Dragons VS Wests Tigers [Saturday]; NRL Semi-Finals : Parramatta Eels VS North Queensland Cowboys [Sunday].

Go the Swannies! Go the Tigers! Go the Cowboys!

-- Yeah, those teams won --

It's an experience to watch a footy game at a restaurant/bar with the boys. Imagine a group of seven blokes & one girl. Hmmm...definitely a testosterone-charged atmosphere with the boys yelling their lungs out at every tackle.

Teddy music: How Deep The Father's Love For Us

Some girls would think it's bloody boring but for me, I found it entertaining. I'm already used to watching sports on telly - my daddy and I watch F1 and the occasional rugby union game (go the All Blacks! ;P), some of my guy friends have made me sit there with them and watch football (soccer) games e.g. English Premiership League, World Cup (go Holland! I'm biased towards them..heh).

Not only that, it's so funny to watch the guys' reactions - managed to catch some of it on tape...hehe.

I didn't get to play lanterns in Sydney (the boys weren't interested - PS2 was beckoning them) so I guess I'll have to play them here in Canberra. At least, I managed to get the lanterns...yayness!

So what if it's childish? It's all for fun...

Jase, Darren & Erin, I wish you were here to play lanterns with me...me thinks you'd be willing participants, no? Correct me if I'm wrong.

exquisitely lickable

2005-09-24T00:34:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Hoobastank - The Reason

You're teddylicious.

Absolutely.

You bring a smile to me so easily.

You are teddylicious, indeedy. =)

Ever so lickable.

Hehe.

*******

Dedicated to the close friends I hold so dear. =)

innocent life

2005-09-21T12:42:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Natalie Imbruglia - That Day

I read this on News.com.au today:

Dolphin found stabbed to death

!!!!!!

I sincerely hope that they find whoever did this incredibly appalling act of kiiling an innocent creature.

I love dolphins too. My Dolphie (my beloved stuffed dolphin toy) would be outraged and deeply sorrowful.

How can people do this?

A moment of silence for the passing of a dolphin.

zero thoughts

2005-09-20T00:51:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: I'm Yours

Some people just don't think.

Either that, or they think the whole world revolves around them.

walking gremlin

2005-09-18T17:33:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Matt Redman - Let My Words Be Few

Feeling a bit gremlin-ish today.

Just feeling annoyed with myself...

So I went for a walk to the Belconnen Markets to buy apples and oranges. It was a good walk to get some fresh air and sunlight.

Walking back, I realised that Canberra's natural beauty is enhanced by actually taking the time to walk around instead of driving or even cycling.

I got to see those cute little grey parakeets with their funny little white puffy Elvis-like heads. Made me smile.

I also realised that too often, we end up walking with our heads down when we should be looking up. Literally and figuratively. Notice how little children are always running and walking with their heads up, looking around them? Adults are the opposite.

I looked up and saw the blue sky and fluffy clouds. I saw the gently undulating slopes of the hills. I saw the sun streaming through the clouds, splitting itself into rays. I felt the rush of cold, refreshing wind blow through my hair.

And, I fell in love with Canberra all over again.

=)

girly hearts

2005-09-17T00:40:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Train - Calling All Angels

Tonight, I realise afresh just how important a connect (or cell) group can be. Just to have a group of people who love and care for each other like a family. Especially when you're somewhere without your own family nearby.

Thank God a friend was willing to open up and share with the rest of us girls. We got together and prayed together. It's true that no one was made to live this life alone. We need each other. Not that we're meant to be completely dependent on another but just to help each other run the race that Christ set before us.

God designed us to be open and sharing with each other about our lives, both the good and the bad, the calm and the struggles.

rubber wrists

2005-09-15T11:23:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: K& J featuring Tiara - Pulanglah (Tak Mengapa)

My daddy sent me a link to a The Star article - Adding colour to their lives.

What's it about? The latest fashion trend to hit Malaysia. It's the new rubber wristband phenomenon that's swept the fashion world after Lance Armstrong (the champion cyclist who beat cancer to make a comeback) started it off with his bright yellow "Livestrong" wristband in the States.

Now, just about every charity (and profit making organisations) under the sun is hopping on the bandwagon.

Teddy music: Gavin DeGraw - Follow Through

In Australia, you can see it just about everywhere especially when it comes to charity.

I guess, it's a way of standing out but if you think about it too...how different are you from the rest when everyone's wearing them? I'm not shooting down the idea of wearing those wristbands, just a thought. A trend's a trend, I suppose. I would think that yes, it is a way of having something there to remind/encourage/represent what your beliefs/faith/etc are. Actually, isn't it kind of like the WWJD/PUSH/FROG bracelets? I remember getting a bit caught up with that one. Now, I only have two - one on my mobile phone strap and one on my wallet. More for functionality than trend - it makes it easy to grab a hold of the mobile/wallet.

One thing I won't deny about these wristbands, be it the rubber/fabric ones, is that it's a good conversation starter. I've had people ask me before what WWJD/FROG means and I would think that it's a way of showing them your personal beliefs/faith without being too "in your face".

Personally, I own only two of those wristbands - the original "Stand Up, Speak Up" wristband (many thanks to my bro for that one) and a "Faith" wristband (that I got from the recent Real Women's Conference my church had). Honestly, I don't think I would really bother buying one.

I still prefer going for the classic stuff that can last you a good while.

Teddy music: Aimee Man - Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds

A Beatles classic...but I digress.

I emailed my daddy back and told him that his kids are either so ahead of the trend (Kev bought those bracelets in March) or so out of it. Heh. In a way, I do follow trends to a certain extent, but if I like a certain style, I couldn't give a damn about the latest poofy sleeves and fishnet stockings look.

Comfort and versatility has been a big factor in my taste. I'm not saying I'm ultracool or whatever. Just wear what one's comfortable with and isn't too indecent. Besides, I'm such a rough and tumble kind of person, I need clothes that can last the "abuse" I put them through (e.g. my beloved jeans & t-shirt combo). That would also explain why my G-Shock watch is the only watch to have lasted beyond three years.

I only started wearing high heels and more "girly" tops (I love my accessories though) about 3-4 years ago. Yes, I was sadly lagging behind in being "girly", to the point that my mum had nearly given up on me. God bless her soul that she still had some vestiges of hope that I would start incorporating girl stuff. She would buy me clothes that I would wear once and then never wear again. I still remember a certain cotton-candy pink top she bought that I went, "PINK??!!. I wore it only once to make her happy. She ended up wearing it instead of me. There were endless fights about "Why can't you wear a skirt? Can't you wear something nicer?" To which the response would be, "Jeans are easier to sit in! This shirt is nice [some random t-shirt]!"

Now when we go shopping, I believe that she's happy that I show her girl clothes instead of dragging her over to the guys' section and saying, "Aren't these trackies cool? Can I get that shirt? I like those socks...can I get them?" I stopped at the ties. ;P

Teddy music: David Meece - We Are The Reason

Don't you think it's funny how girls are "expected" to wear tight clothing (otherwise she's seen as a dyke/fat if she wears loose/baggy clothing) and guys are "expected" to wear loose-fitting/baggy clothes (otherwise he's seen as gay)? Flashback to a several decades ago, and look at the fashion then. Guys were wearing tight shirts and pants (I've seen my parents' old photos...and yes, cringed) and the girls were all into the flowy, loose clothes. I wonder if my future kids will cringe when they look at my photos next time. I know I already do when I look at the photos taken last time. ;P

Then again, fashion has always made a big circle. Bellbottoms have been resurrected as flares. I wonder whether shiny polyester will make a huge comeback.

Ah well...the world of fashion. Always such a mystery. I think that's why I like Zoolander - the way it takes the mickey out of the transiency of the fashion industry.

Oh...and if you didn't know:

WWJD - What Would Jesus Do?
PUSH - Pray Until Something Happens
FROG - Fully Rely On God

So that's my two cents' worth of thought on this new trend.

new look

2005-09-13T23:50:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jars of Clay - Little Drummer Boy

A new blogskin. The boredom got to me. ;P

Thanks to the green one for the use of the background image =)

Yep.

Now, to think of things to do besides twiddling thumbs.

rainbow love

2005-09-11T17:18:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Utah State That One - Rainbow Connection

There was a gorgeous rainbow arch stretching all the way from Bimbimbie Street to International House. And, how perfectly complementary the song that's playing now (it's on random shuffle!).

Thanks God for the reminder to be faithful to Your promises.

I'll post up the pix later.

Back to work now.

=)

I love rainbows. Don't you?

spring blossom

2005-09-11T16:13:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Utada Hikaru - Simple & Clean

Forget the last entry I posted (it's already been taken out if you've not read it). Got a jolt back to reality (thanks God) when I was listening to today's message in church.

The new iPod Nano is so cute! Hehe...

Have a great day!

nutty one

2005-09-09T01:30:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jasemaine - Never Ending Story

I heard my housemate and her boyfriend arguing yesterday. Then, I see them walking hand in hand today.

I see people getting hurt by their significant others. And, they're still together after that.

I watch as a person's trust gets broken by the person they love. Still, they rebuild their relationship together.

Then there are those couples that just embody that loving concept. The couples that inspire you to emulate the way they show they care for each other.

What is that magical ingredient in love that keeps them together?

Sheer blindness? Something that goes beyond comprehension?

I think I'm crazy for wanting something that I'm afraid of having.

I don't know whether I'm ready for a relationship. Whether I could put up with the crazy things that could happen.

Teddy music: Bellefire - I Need To Be Next To You

Sometimes, I think I am. Then, I second guess myself.

But then again...who am I kidding? It's not like there's anyone asking at this point. Why think of what's not even happening now?

I'm just a teddy.

=)

just you

2005-09-06T01:55:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Five For Fighting - One More For Love

There's something I'd like to say.

When I walk into a room, I want to see you there and the way you light it up.
I want to be able to hug you tight whenever I feel like it.
I want to be in the state of not knowing whether to say "Hi" or just hug you when I see you.
I want to feel what it's like to have your hand hold mine.
I want to feel the security of your embrace when I need it most.
I want to drown in the flood of your affection and love.
I want to shower you with kisses and embraces.
I want to have you to call my own and to belong to you.
I want to be able to hold your face in my hands and just look at the beautiful creation God made in you.
I want to live a life with you in it.
I want to build a life together with you.
I want to do crazy things with you that no one else will do.
I want to have silly inside jokes with you that no one else comprehends.
I want to wake up everyday next to you.
I want to lay my head on your heart and listen to you breathe.
I want to capture your cheeky smile and hide it in my heart for rainy days.
I want to be there to catch your tears and soothe your hurts when you're cut.
I want to celebrate significant days together.
I want to grow old with you.
I want to learn more about you everyday.
I want to be endlessly fascinated by everything you are.
I want to know that there's a number I can call whenever for whatever.
I want to hear your laughter in the air.
I want to see our shoes sitting next to each other.
I want to see our clothes all mixed up together in the closet.
I want to see your toothbrush next to mine in a mug.
I want to see you first thing in the morning and last at night.
I want to hear you sleeping next to me.
I want to take endless pictures of you to try capture the essence of you.
I want to see the love in your eyes when you look at me.
I want to hear you say those magical words of "I love you".
I want to see the evidence of a pledge to each other on our left hands.

Most of all, I just want you.

deserving smack

2005-09-01T21:11:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Kelly Clarkson - Low

Oooohhh...

I really want to smack some people now. Grrr...

Yes, the things that some people do can be so low. Terrible.

How can a person do that to another? Insensitive creatures.

.......

you what?!

2005-08-30T22:51:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Matt Redman - Let My Words Be Few

This post has the distinction of being typed using only one hand.

You must be wondering why. No, I'm not going for the Guinness World Record for the fastest blog entry typed with one hand.

I'm doing it this way because I can't use my left hand.

Again, you must be wondering why.

I had a freak accident on Sunday. I slipped on some loose gravel (on my sprained ankle) and fell. Not so bad, eh? Read on...

I'd been holding my keys in my left hand when I fell. After I fell on my butt, I looked at my hand and saw that my postbox key had been embedded in the middle of my palm. I kid you not. It was well and truly stuck so thank goodness my church friends hadn't driven off yet. We rushed to the emergency room to get it out. I was in shock so there was no pain. Thank God for local anaesthesia so I couldn't feel the key being taken out.

I asked the doctor how deep it had gone in. He showed me that it had gone in about 1cm at an angle. O.O There's still a little blood on the key...eheh.

Praise God that it had missed the bones/tendons/nerves. Now, it's just the waiting for the wound to heal completely. =)

I'm so grateful too for my three friends who were with me at that time. They stayed calm and kept the situation light so no one would panic.

The funniest reaction to my accident goes to Kevin. In response to telling him what had happened, he went, "You what?!" Also, he asked me why I didn't ask for morphine in addition to my antibiotics. Dear me...Heh

I'm just glad that it was alright and yeah, like my church friend said, at least it wasn't more than one key...

;P

Also, thank you soooo much to those who've helped to make it easier for me with their assistance and care. *millwen teddy hugs*

I just really respect and admire those people who can deal with their disabilities. I never really realised how hard it is to do things with just one hand! Good thing too that my right hand's safe otherwise it would be even worse as I wouldn't even be able to write!

Praise God for His care =)

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Edit: People...you have to click HERE. I'm just so proud of her right now - but then again, I think she's always awesome ;P Rock on, Jase, rock on!

gone

2005-08-27T17:38:00.000+10:00

I think I've lost myself.

Oh dear.

Help?

heavenly sandpaper

2005-08-26T23:53:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Natalie Imbruglia - Beauty On The Fire

My daddy sometimes has a way of putting things into words. Heavenly sandpaper - when you need that extra grace from God to deal with people.

Tonight, as I walked away from a birthday party, I felt so alien. Not alienated but alien. I don't belong to this. God made me for a purpose higher than this...

So I shouldn't have to apologise for being different because that's how we were meant to be.

Still...I don't know.

I suppose that's why they call it a life-long lesson. You never stop learning until the day you die.

caramel noon

2005-08-24T16:29:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Coldplay - The Scientist

Looks like no sports for at least a week. On the bright side, it's a 2 or 3 on the scale of sprained ankle severity, according to the doctor.

Now, I get to to wear a tubular support bandage that's so much easier to put on than the usual wrap-around bandage. =) Yayness...heh.

I blame my daddy for making me crave for sourdough sandwiches now. See what you did now, Pa? Hehe. He mentioned that my mummy had made sourdough bread at her baking course. Then, we started talking about sourdough sandwiches and that led us to the topic of Schlotzsky's Deli - a place that sold the best tasting sourdough turkey sandwiches. It used to be at Ampang Mall but it's gone for a couple years now. Sighs...

Teddy music: John Mayer - Comfortable

I haven't heard this song for a while. It's a very sweet and fuzzy song. Mmmm...caramel & butterscotch. Sorry, I digress. ;P

And, the kangaroos are out sunning themselves in the late afternoon sunshine. The lazybums... ;P

think location

2005-08-23T01:46:00.000+10:00

So, where are you? =(

Sighs.

It's late and it's not recommended to start thinking this so late.

Sighs.

hobble on, hobble on...

2005-08-22T23:13:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Natalie Imbruglia - That Day

Skiing. Interesting experience minus the sprained ankle. Heh. Yeap, I stacked it good at Perisher Blue by going on the intermediate slope before I was really ready. Ah well, thank God I didn't break/twist anything badly. =)

Skiing was fun because you can fall down into soft snow (so long as it's not packed down) and you're not as likely to bruise yourself as compared to skating. Of course, skiing means you're more likely to twist your knee or something.

Still, I'd prefer skating over skiing anytime.

;P

rocky road delicacy indeed

2005-08-21T00:24:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Sarah Sadler - How Deep The Father's Love For Us

What an intense ice hockey game earlier between Canberra Knights and Western Sydney Ice Dogs! Phooo...

It's good thing that the Knights won the game at 7-2. There were quite a few scuffles on the ice too...hehe. Well, what else would you expect at an ice hockey game? ;P

Was successful in making rocky road chocolate and there are now four small plastic tubs sitting pretty in the freezer. Gave one away to Kev, just because. =)

*******

You know, I've been wondering about what would things be like if something happened. I kind of wish it would but then again, you know what they say about being careful what you wish for.

Oh well. Must be the lack of oxygen to my brain from trying to breathe through a stuffy nose.

=)

juice it up

2005-08-19T01:05:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Lift - You're My God

*tries to breathe through stuffy nose*

Nope, not working very well.

*******

Let me pose a question here. Given a lemon and some teabags, what would you do with it?

Kev's reasoning for juicing the lemon and apples together (I'd given him a care package of apples, strawberries, a lemon, some teabags and soup some time back when he was sick) was that he categorised the food - fruits, teabags (for doughnuts - coffee and tea are the same to him), soup.

So there you go. Looks like it's always safer to explain beforehand what goes with what. Although, can't blame him for what he did. So long as he got the nutrients in. Heh.

*******

Look at what Kev got! The bottom pass is for me, quite unexpectedly but a very nice surprise nonetheless. =)

Hehe...yayness indeed!

*******

*tries to breathe again through stuffy nose*

Nope, still not working. Oh well.

And, best news is my darling has come back whole! Yayness!! =)

wonderful heavenly father

2005-08-14T00:34:00.000+10:00

God is amazing. Always is, always will be.

Yes, I'd been feeling down and out for the past few days but He just turned it around for me. He just never fails to surprise me.

The Real Women's Conference was a true blessing because God came and healed me where I needed Him most. I just feel so loved and encouraged by Him. Of course, us girls were thoroughly pampered with delicious chocolates, coffee and kisses/hugs. The best part was being given the "royal treatment" from God Himself.

The fact that we can put a smile on God's face was something I'd known before but through this conference, it brought a new level of meaning for me. God smiles at me because He loves me. Do you get it? God smiles because He loves us. You and me. Doesn't matter who we are, what we look like or what we do, He smiles out of sheer love for us. How mindblowing is that?! Totally.

I'd been feeling unloved, discouraged, forgotten, hurt and sad. Although it was the enemy trying to drag me down, I just couldn't seem to get it that I was loved by God. After the conference, I felt like all those horrible feelings had been taken away and God poured in His love into all the empty holes and healed my heart.

Also, I'm just so grateful for the family and good friends He's blessed me with. I liked the way Pastor Amanda spoke about true friends that love and accept you for who you are (and of course, they help you to improve too!). God's blessed me with a family that can be a solid stand for me and friends who show they do care (you know who you are ;P). It means a lot. =)

Now, I can go get a good rest. Thanks to the bestest Daddy in heaven. =)

no words

2005-08-12T17:39:00.000+10:00

All I can say is "ouch."

Dugong dear, thank you for caring. =)

white fluffyness

2005-08-10T19:48:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Gwen Stefani - Hollaback Girl

It's snowing...AGAIN!!!

Absolute yayness! =)

*huge teddy grins*

Just had a hot shower because I'd been running around outside in the snow wearing just a t-shirt and trackies. Hehe...yeap, that's how excited I am to see snowflakes!

All my closest buddies, wish you were here to experience this together... =) Snow is meant to be shared with good friends.

hail blasted snow

2005-08-10T16:40:00.000+10:00

Teddy music: Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness

How cool is it that in the space of one day, one can encounter freezing blasts, hail and snow?

I've not seen hail or snow for 9 years.

Today, God gave the chance, albeit a brief one, to re-encounter it. =)

It started to snow in the middle of ICC tute and the whole class rushed out to marvel at it. It is kind of funny to think about a bunch of older kids getting excited about the snowflakes.

Teddy music: Mandy Moore - Can We Still Be Friends

But, it was such a delight to just stand there, letting the snowflakes swirl around you and trying to catch them in your hands.

Same thing when it hailed earlier while I was in my room. I actually hurried out to see if I could catch some of the hailstones but just missed it. At least I got to see it. Hehe.

I've missed snow for far too long. =)

Next week, IH residents are heading up to Perisher Blue for a ski trip. Woohoo! Let's see if this teddy can ski. ;P